The Original Earth Woman
Back in November of last year, I began to get these heart pains. At the time, my emotions were manifesting as physical pain in my body. When these pains would arise, I would often stop what I was doing, close my eyes, and bring my attention to the pain. I would breathe and ask my body what it wanted me to know, or what memory wanted to be witnessed. This process was deeply healing, and when I processed the emotions or the memories, the pain would cease. However, I wasn’t able to process the pain within my heart. I began to feel scared and overwhelmed, not knowing what to do. It was as though the pain was so deep within me that I couldn’t access it.
It wasn’t until I went to a ceremony led by traditional Wixárika Marakames (shamans) that I was able to access the pain within my heart. Within the ceremony, I was shown that this pain was not something to be scared of, but rather was the Original Earth Woman calling out from within my body to be seen and heard. I understood that the heart pain came at the moments when I chose not to listen to my intuition, or when I silenced my voice. This was me ignoring and silencing her. The pain was her cries to be seen and heard, coming from my own heart.
In the vision, I was shown how we have collectively buried her underground and ignored and abused her. Although in the vision I was shown her buried below the Earth, I understood that she is also buried deep within me and within you. She has been exiled for hundreds of generations and is rising up within us, because it is safe for her to return now.
The body of Mother Earth is simply a reflection of the bodies of women. The domination and domestication that Mother Earth has suffered over the last several thousand years is the same as that which women have suffered. Therefore, the fate of Mother Earth lies in the fate of women, or more specifically, the divine feminine essence that is within all of us.
The Original Earth Woman was rising up in my own body, manifesting herself as pains within my heart, in order to bring me home and set me free. There are many levels of freedom, but the freedom that she is asking for is for us to be who we really are. When we embody the essence of who we truly are, we are embodying the essence of the Original Earth Woman. As we reclaim and rewild who we really are, we will simultaneously reclaim and rewild Mother Earth.
We came into this world infused with the essence of the Original Earth Woman, but through enculturation and painful life experiences, we have disconnected from her in order to feel safe and accepted. But she rose up within me, like a canary crying out in a coal mine. She wants me to share that it is time for us to come back to who we really are.
In the end, it is a deeply empowering message in a time when war and global atrocities make us feel powerless. Outward violence is but a reflection of our inner collective state of pain. When we each take accountability of healing our own limiting beliefs, wounds, and traumas, they no longer become projected out into the world. Rather, we return to the essence of who we are, and this wild beauty is mirrored in the outer world. What greater gift could we give to Mother Earth today, then to be ourselves.